The dark

My mind has been dark the last few weeks.

A new year and so much to look forward to and yet I feel like I have been wading through quicksand or stuck in a thick soupy fog.

Its been 10 years since my dad died, 2 years since my grandmother passed away and a year since my brother left us.

It feels like just yesterday, like a blink and here I am.

My uncle has cancer.  He cant beat it, no matter how hard he tries or how much we will it.

I feel like curling up in bed, pulling the covers over my head and never coming out.

And then I look at my husband, my beautiful children, my amazing life and I get up,  I look to the sun and I carry on!

“Keep your face to the sunshine and you cannot see the shadow. It’s what sunflowers do.” – Helen Keller

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9 responses to “The dark

  1. Have been thinking about you these past few days. Much love to you. xoxoxo

  2. Much strength and gentleness to you today.

  3. tanyadk

    Sending you lots of love and hugs. We’re here for you no matter what!

  4. Huge hugs my friend. I can not have a clue of what you are going through but know that we are keeping you in our thoughts

  5. Sharon

    Hang in there, the sun will shine again!
    xxx

  6. ((hugs)) It does sound like an emotionally turbulent time. The sun will come out tomorrow!

  7. I’m sorry to read about your uncle.

  8. I hope the sun shines brighter for you so all the shadows dissapear altogether xxx

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